Mi Trabajo

I choose to thank you for my weaknesses, my infirmities, my inadequacies (physical, mental, emotional, relational) … for the ways I fall short of what people view as ideal… for my feelings of helplessness and inferiority, and even my pain and distresses. What a comport it is to know that you understand the feeling of my weakness… and that in your infinite wisdom you have allowed these in my life so that they may contribute to your high purpose for me.

 I specifically THANK YOU for :

 That many time my weaknesses – through my pride and help walk humbly with you…and then, as you’ve promised you give me more grace – You help me and bless and strengthen me. Thank you for all the ways I’m inadequate for they prod me to trust in you and not in myself…and in grateful that my adequacy comes from you. Thank you for each disturbing or humbling situation in my life, for each breaking or cleansing process you are allowing, for each problem or hindrance, for each thing that triggers in an anxiety or anger or pain.

Thank you also for each difficulty is opportunity to see you work…that in your time you will bring me out to a place of abundance. I rejoice that you plan to enrich and beautify me through each problem, each conflict, each struggle…that through them you expose my weaknesses and needs, my hidden sins, my self-centeredness (and especially my self-reliance and pride).

 Thank you that You use trials to humble me and perfect my faith and produce in me the quality of endurance…that they prepare the soil of my heart for the flesh new growth in godliness that you and I both long to see in me… and that you momentary troubles are producing for me an eternal glory that far outweighs them all, as I keep my eyes focused on you.

Thank You that,  I can trust you to remove or change any of my weaknesses and handicaps and shortcomings. The moment they are no longer needed for your glory, and for my good, and that in the meantime. I am grateful that you look beyond my superficial desire for trouble-free life; instead, you, enjoy your warm fellowship, and become more like your Son. Your grace is sufficient for me, for your strength is made perfect in my weakness.  “Therefore I am well content with weaknesses with insults, with distress with difficulties, for Christ sake for when  I am strong ” ( 2 Corinthians 12 :10)

The Holy Spirit, that wonderful gift sent by our risen Lord to indwell us and empowers us.      The Lord has not set before us ideal of a life filled with praise and then left us alone to achieve it. How could we, on our own reach such as a high goal- with the down-pull of our old fleshly patterns of living; with the pain of our trials, large or small; with our tendency to depend on ourselves and get distracted from the Lord and do our own thing. But we have the Holy Spirit! Just think of this means!

 
He is within you as a fountain of water, springing up to fill you with fresh life-life that is eternal, life that is full. Through him, time after time, you can know the refreshment that comes from the presence of the Lord. Through the spirit you can understand the scriptures and experience the marvelous things God has freely given you in Christ. Through him you are liked in vital oneness with the father and the son and have all you need for life and godliness. You have all you need to inspire praise; comport, encouragement, inexpressible joy, overflowing hope, strength in your innermost being and power to love and serve.

 
You also have power to praise and give thanks: “Ever be filled with the spirit…continue giving thanks for everything” (Ephesians 5:18). You don’t have to beg the Holy Spirit to fill you… to gracious influence and control. He then performs his amazing ministries
in you.

I stared at your face first time I saw you. In my arms I hold the most precious babe, so little and fragile. From the moment I have you; there will be no doubt that you are mine I know God lead you to be with me

And please know from the very start I fell in love with you.. I will always be a part of youand a child of my heart I will share my love with you each day and all year through

My hopes grow with each passing day
Even though you’re miles away  know you’ve waiting for me as I am here waiting to see the child…God has sent from above to make me a mom and share all my love to you…

Umalis sa aking bayan upang baguhin ang aking pamumuhay Halo-halong nararamdaman ng umupo pa lang sa eroplanong aking hinintay Naiiyak na parang bata at ang hanap ang nanay pati ang tatay Tinititigan ang pintuan di mawari kung tatalikuran and bayang naghihintay Napatulala ng pansamantala at biglang may sumigaw “ umupo ng husay” at unti-unting umangat at umalis ng tuluyan ang eroplanong aking sinasakyan

Nakarating ng maayos sa bagong bahaywalang makakasama at walang karamay takot ang bumalot at pagaalala kung paano makakayaSinusubukan na lang na umasa sa gabay ng Dyos at may dasal na kasama

Unti unting nakakasanayan ang buhay na ganito pinipilit na maging masigla at para di mabato nababawasan ang pagaalala at nakakapadala ng konting balato mga tsokolate, de lata at kape at kung sinuwerte may kasama pang pabango Konting pera ang isasakripisyo para magkaron ng bahay at lupa na bato at itutuloy ang kontrata hanggang mabuo ang pangnegosyo

Di maiwasan minsan ang lungkot na dumadaan Iiyak ka na lang at matutulog kung kinakailangan Para di matuluyan na masiraan mugto ang mata kinaumagan at maliligo para mapreskuhan Patuloy na lumaban para makayanan and lahat ng karanasan na di maiwasan

Nakakalungkot ang mga pinagdaanan Marami ang gustong matikman Katulad ng baboy na sinigang o kinamatisan Pati pansit ni aling Beng na nakakatakam ultimong adobong pusit na malinamnam Amoy ng tuyo na may hiniwang kamatis sa umagahan Yan ang mga nakakapanghinayang habang wala ka sa sariling bayan

Walang magagawa kundi maghintay At magpasalamat sa may bigay ng bagong buhay At nawa’y maibalik ko ang lahat ng bigay Sa pamamagitan ng pagtulong sa kapwa at nangangailangan Walang katapusan pasasamat at tayo ay napagbigyan sa ganitong buhay At balang araw gusto ko makita ng Poong mahal kung gaano ko pinahalagahan ang lahat ng biyaya na aking natikman

Sana’y sa lahat na nagsusumikap at malayo sa mga minamahalWag mawalan ng pagasa ikaw din ay balang araw ay mamahingawag lang sayangin ang mga kinita at purihin ang Dyos sa lahat ng bigay nya

Di niya tayo pinabayaan mula sa araw ng ating paglisan hanggang sa makabalik sa ating bayan Kungdi sa iyong gabay di ko sana narating itong aking kinalalagyan Maraming Salamat po aking panginoon sa lahat ng mga biyaya na iyong binigay

Walang ibang hiling ng bawat isa sa atin
kundi ang buhay na walang kasing saya at walang problema subalit ang problema’y laging kasama at dala dala habang buhay pa

Nandyan na iiyak ka o sisihin ang iba May kasabihan nga “problema ay tawanan”
pero minsan di ka naman makatawa sa hirap maresolba
Iba’t ibang problema ang pagdadaan
susubukan ang iyong lakas kung hanggang saan ang kaya

Binibigyan na ng pagkakakitaan sya naman ang ayaw at walang ambisyon sa buhay
Pinakamataas na position ay napasakanya di inayos
Hangang nakasuhan ng pagnanakaw sa kumpanya

Nandyan ang wala kang makitang mapagkakakitaan
para kumita ng malaki para matugunan ang pangangailangan
Ang iba naman walang matitirhan kundi nasa bangketa lamang
Init at lamig kinatatakutan dahil masakit sa kalamnan

Meron pa ngang walang wala maipasok sa nangangalam na tyan subalit ang iba’y walang tigil sa kakain
hanggang si Calayan ayaw ng tantanan

Iba’t ibang pampaganda ang pinagkakagastusan
para maging kamukha nya si Madonna o Sharon Cuneta
Di na nakuntento kung anong taglay nyaimbes na gumanda ay naging bruha

Marami din ang maykaya walang ginusto na di makuha
lahat ng luho ay nakakamit nya
di nya namalayan lahat ng yaman nya nalustay na

Sa mga binata’t dalaga ang gusto ay makahanap ng makakasama
di rin magtatagal at naghahanap ng iba
hanggang di na makakita ng magmamahal sa kanya

Ang iba pa nga ay buti nakapagasawa
away at murahan ang ginawa sa buhay
na pinangakuan na sila’y magsasama sa hirap at ginhawa

Mas malupit ang gustong guminhawa
at subukan na makapunta sa ibang bansa para kumita
nabiyayaan sya ng dolyares na makakapasaya ng pamilya di rin naglaon nakahanap ng iba, asawa’t anak ay kinalimutan na
at lahat ng nais para sa kanila ay naging walang saysay dahil iba ang inuna

Kung lahat ng problema ay ilalahad para mapagtanto kung saan, kanino at paano nagsisimula ang mga ito
Laging hinuhuli ang pagsisi at di bale sumaya ka naman kahit minuto Masasabing may solusyon at leksyon ang dulot nito
Pero hanggang kaylan ka matututo

Nawa’y lahat tayo ay magising sa mga dagok ng buhay na ito
Upang tayo’y makatulong sa sinasabing pagbabago ng buong pagkatao

At kung problema’y balakid sa buhay para maging maligaya
harapin, kayanin at alamin kung ano ang ipinapahiwatig ng problema

At higit sa lahat isama ang Dyos na may awa at may bigay ng mga biyaya
at laging nagpaparaya na di maalala kapag tayo ay di namomroblema…

Problema’y mareresolba kung lagi tayong tatawag sa kanya
Dyos lagi ang makasama sa lahat ng problema na ating inaaala.

What do you do when you don’t want

to live but not ready to die?

What do you do when you’re right on the edge,

with no one to catch you when you fall?

You lost your last semblance of hope

and without it there’s no way to fight

Your life has no purpose or meaning

and there’s nothing inside you but fear.

If there’s just one who cares about you…

then perhaps you’ll cope

If there’s one being who wants you as

part of their life…

then perhaps it will be a reason-

A beginning and not the end.

There are many tomorrows in your life

you see, don’t ever give up because

you have me…

You have someone here who loves you and cares

and will never give up on you even on dare

I will be the light in your dark surroundings…

Remember it always for I am right here

To be there for you true the pain and the sorrow

Thru every tomorrow and don’t let

darkness take over you…

The issue of forgiveness is something I struggle with almost every single day. My faith tells me I should forgive but it was difficult to find this forgiveness, because the feeling were burning beyond reason, and could not be rationalized away.

Forgiveness does not change the past. Does not erase what was done then. Prison caused by anger and hurt, the misery spread out into the lives of those around me…Time to move on with living thought are ever turning backward…

Forgiveness has the power to transform us and change the future we are creating out of our attitudes and actions. Forgiving is looking the pain, learning the lesson it has produced.

I try to end the cycle of revenge, the hurt and anger could have been stored deep in me… but where and when would that end?

I believed, by God’s grace there was also plans for me to expose me to certain necessary tools that have brought me to this understanding…I no longer feel a need to stay attached to all the pain and anger as a way to feel righteous and justified for being hurt. It prevents me from fully healing from those things that hurt me so much. And that pain is real no matter who or what the reason for it was. It is a choice what we can do with the pain, sometimes our only Choice.

So, to sum up, I’m looking to your dreams for help in resolving pain and anger that may arise because I cannot sincerely forgive. I’d wished to do mainly for myself in hope of letting go of the pain…coz I could not ignore the fact that this was not in the end about YOU who caused this, but about Myself. It was something that I struggled with tremendously…

Wherever you are…I am able now to give you, unconditionally, my forgiveness… I am giving you peace and also myself. I now know myself outside of the shadow of your pain and the perceptions of others who continue to look everywhere else but within to find a reason for their suffering…So, once again…hear me: I forgive you - for all pain you cause me…